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Pollyanna

One of my friends had taken to calling me Pollyanna after the character in the books and the Disney film (I hadn't heard of it either- thank goodness for Google)



Basically the little girl, Pollyanna, looks for the good in everything. And at the moment I'm trying to do the same because if I didn't I think I would just have some sort of breakdown!

There have been parts of today that have been totally and utterly shit. No other word for it. And I wonder how on earth me and hubby will cope over the next week or 2. Just when you think it couldn't get any worse, well yes it bloody does. 

So in true Pollyanna style and I guess like the people that do 100 days ofhappiness photos on Facebook, this was basically the only good thing to happen today. 


They had my favourite hospital dinner of cheese tortellini and garlic bread on the menu tonight and then Kitty dropped in with a Tupperware box containing homemade scones. And she brought jam. 

So there you go. That's it. I enjoyed my dinner and my supper. And that is all. (Oh and kitty's visit of course) And there's always tomorrow's enema and colonoscopy to look forward to. 

NB x

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