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Endless love

To my amazing hubby and my gorgeous kids,

I'm sitting, waiting for my operation. Hopefully this will be the first and last one for this year and me being in hospital will no longer be normal for our family. 

Before they take me down I want you to know that I love you. I love you more than life itself. Everything I do is for you guys. You are my world. 

You have been my reason to keep going, to keep living even when I didn't think I had the strength left in me to last another day. When I felt like giving up, you wouldn't let me. When I cried, you wiped away the tears. You told me to be strong. That this wouldn't be forever. 

Hopefully you were right and today is the beginning of the end. The start of a new chapter in our lives. I hope so because as much as people tell me that I deserve it, so do you. 

This has been hard for you all too. I know that. I know you hate leaving me in hospital as much I hate to see you go. I have been in pain but you have suffered too. This illness may have physically affected me but its taken its toll on all of us. 

That is why I hope and pray that Surgeon A will finally 'fix my tummy', make me better and well enough to come home to you all very soon. Back where I belong. 

Today I kissed you goodbye but I hope it won't be forever.

NB x
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